kekeke. my whatchamacallit is dead XD mMm. i still <3 my xanqa. http://www.xanga.com/thugzandkissz if you still wanna read my almost-daily ramblings! :DD

I should be happy that I'm in student council. I should be glad that people took the time to vote for me, even though my speeches are getting old. I should have a smile on my face that I had dozens of people campaigning for me. But I don't. Why? I don't know. Maybe it's because my best council buddy isn't in. I could cry. I'm going to miss Kelly so much during lunch meetings. I mean, all the ideas are about basketball. Or maybe it's because I'm envious of those who won presidency. Maybe it's because almost EVERYONE I voted for didn't make it. Maybe it's because I made it. I don't deserve it. Others work hard, harder than me. Or maybe it's because some people don't even work, and they get in. Maybe it's just... me.

lol i hardly blog :D anyway life is going pretty go0d. lol sorry so short entry, but i gotta go take a shower :] feel better jake! your writing will ROCK once it clicks- i'm going through the same thing. i'm just waitin for some inspiration. ahh this bl0g makes me lo0k like such a happy person >< ah well. much love!

ALLEN

wow. hardly anyone reads my tabulas :D anyway, i'm trying to fall asleep, but i can't. i have so much on my mind... but if i think too deeply about it, i'll become depressed again... and i'm at a happy point in my life, and i don't wanna lose that. =[

and it's like, i want someone to talk to about it. not just anyone, but someone who'll understand what i'm going through, because they're probably going through the same thing ... unfortunately, i haven't found that companion yet.

gah see what i mean? if i think about this too much, it`ll become disappoiting, and i don't wanna be disappointed! >O anyway, i'm gonna go try to sleep . night night.